Tiff Holland
Sundries
A new McDonald’s had sprouted up in less than a
week. Stick-in-the-ground banners announced “Now Open!” and I
wondered how that could be? The building had been there for months,
but nothing inside, no booths, no kitchen and then “poof” it was
open. I put on my blinker and turned into the CVS across the street.
Tired of waiting in line at Walgreen’s I had been methodically
transferring my prescriptions to CVS. In response, Walgreen’s sent
me a coupon which promised twenty-five dollars the next time I
transferred a prescription there. Sometimes, I played this game. In
the past I had sent the prescriptions back and forth in response to
the coupons, racking up hundreds of dollars towards unspecified
“merchandise.”
Now, I sat in the car with the engine running,
wondering if I should bother picking up the prescriptions. I
considered leaving the money I would spend on them at home on my
dresser along with the rest of the cash in my wallet and with a list
of instructions and ATM pin numbers. Then, I remembered we were out
of peanut butter. The kid would need it for her lunch the next day.
I turned off the ignition and went in.
I didn’t want anyone to see me, so I left my
sunglasses on. At the front of the store two clerks were filling
carts with leftover Halloween items: candy, decorations, remnants of
costumes. I went to the ATM machine in the corner, emptied my
account. The peanut butter was on sale: three jars for five dollars,
but there were only four jars and the plastic was buckled on the
sides of three, so I decided on just the one. Then I headed to the
aisle which could only be described as sundries—no rhyme or reason
to it. Aisle fifteen: light bulbs, lint rollers, scraper blades,
little pine tree cut-outs people hang from the rear view mirrors in
their cars. Although it was twenty cents more, I went for the
familiar, the green box of safety blades like the one my dad used to
keep in the medicine cabinet in the downstairs bathroom. On a whim,
I grabbed one of the pine trees, even though I hate the way they
smell.
I asked the clerk at the counter if they still
accepted Walgreen’s coupons, and she said they did. I handed it to
her, told her my name. She grabbed three prescriptions from the
bin, asked me to verify my address. Then she scanned my card and had
me sign for receipt. I pried the box of safety blades from their
oyster packaging and shoved it in my pocket. I figured I’d just keep
it there,; that would be enough. I only needed to buy myself a day.
If things got tough, I could put a hand in my pocket, feel the edges
of the box, knowing what was inside. If things got worse, I could
slip one of the cardboard sheaved blades out and leave it loose in
my pocket. I tried not to think any further, tearing open the top of
the plastic envelope for the pine-tree. I hung it over the mirror
like I was anyone else, as if my pockets were empty.
Tiff Holland's poetry and prose has
appeared in dozens of lit-mags, e-zines and anthologies and has
twice been nominated for the Pushcart Prize. Her poetry chapbook
Bone In a Tin Funnel is available through Pudding House Press
and her story "The Boys" was named a notable story 2008 by
StorySouth magazine. She teaches at Austin Community College.