N. J. Webster ~ My Dog Died the Day the World Discovered Clean, Renewable Nuclear Fusion

It hap­pened in a sprawl­ing lab­o­ra­to­ry in south­ern Italy. It hap­pened in a dingy vet’s office next to a Domino’s.

Oliver slept in the front seat, curled up in his fuzzy blan­ket like a black silken hand­ker­chief tucked in a pock­et. We were dri­ving into a city we’d vis­it­ed many times—but today it was new, it was chang­ing, it was rein­vent­ed right before our eyes.

Sun-shy men in busi­ness suits wan­dered from their high-rise to cel­e­brate with tourists beneath a yel­low awning. The puls­ing glow of a woe­be­gone elec­tron­ics store drew in a crowd; on sev­en­ty-five inch­es of HD qual­i­ty, kind­ly sci­en­tists explained the future. A war had end­ed, one said. A war peo­ple didn’t even know we were fight­ing. Someone hauled a mas­sive speak­er into Grand Park and cranked Bruce Springsteen until the sound frothed.

Oliver had walked that patchy park, sniffed its graf­fi­tied fences and uri­nat­ed in its scrub brush planter box­es. It wasn’t one of his favorites. Pretty low on the list, actually—a dirty city park with glass scat­tered on the side­walk and tum­ble­weeds of trash accu­mu­lat­ed in its nooks. He got off the leash there once, grin­ning and sprint­ing. A snob­by city lady screamed at me: My dog could bite some­one. He could get into the street. Did I want him to die?

In the vet’s office, a high­school­er there to trim her Chow Chow’s nails explained humanity’s new oppor­tu­ni­ty to an old­er gen­tle­man pet­ting a hair­less cat. The recep­tion­ist must not have known the pur­pose of my vis­it. After tak­ing my name, she pushed back fash­ion­able red glass­es and asked me if I’d heard the good news.

I dis­cov­ered Oliver at a free-adop­tion event out­side a bud­get super­mar­ket. He was a mot­tled black and white Chihuahua mix, twelve pounds of ner­vous love and mus­cle. While the oth­er dogs pranced and plead­ed for atten­tion, Oliver sat sto­ic. He watched me. I didn’t even con­sid­er the oth­er dogs. Two room­mates and a girl­friend have come and gone—Oliver’s stayed.

A port­ly Italian sci­en­tist dis­cov­ered eco­nom­i­cal­ly viable nuclear fusion by com­bin­ing light atom­ic nuclei in a new and inno­v­a­tive man­ner. The process only required fifty per­cent of the heat and pres­sure thought pos­si­ble, result­ing in a flash of the sun right here on earth, a cat­a­clysmic burst of ener­gy, a glimpse of a future where scarci­ty was banished.

A week lat­er, when the stock mar­ket had dou­bled and the world had not yet returned to its usu­al axis, my mom said I should have per­spec­tive. She point­ed out that I did not cry this much when my grand­moth­er died. There is a big pic­ture, she said, and implied that I was a small pic­ture per­son. All dogs die, that was a fact. But human­i­ty did not have to.

Oliver was curled up in his fuzzy blan­ket. I brought it with us for the smell, to make the ster­ile exam­i­na­tion room seem more like home. He looked asleep, but he was uncon­scious, and I won­dered if there was a difference.

I tried to think of some­thing else, of a future that was actu­al­ly, tru­ly bright. But I thought of Grand Park, its block-long rows of suc­cu­lents and brush. I thought I should have stopped there and let Oliver off the leash.

I asked the vet how often he had to do this—I guess some part of the sci­ence mania had already rubbed off on me, the need to know and sort the facts. I guess I want­ed to do any­thing but cry.

Oh, he said thought­ful­ly, with the same kind face of the Italian sci­en­tist who changed the world. Once or twice a day.

You do this every day? I asked, com­plete­ly stag­gered, reduced to nothing.

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N. J. Webster has pub­lished sto­ries in The Offing, Dishsoap Quarterly, JAKE, and Flash Fiction Magazine. He’s cur­rent­ly writ­ing nov­els which will nev­er see the light of day and pro­cras­ti­nat­ing on Twitter (@realnjwebster).