The Pretenders
The book landed somewhere between bad and unbearable. I suspected it from the start, but kept reading anyway. Maybe to beat back boredom. Maybe to look literary. Probably a little of both. But after two chapters, nobody had done anything, at least nothing worth mentioning, so I closed it on a finger and stared out the window. Fields flattened by winter, white with snow. Not much more than that.
The man next to me sat with folded arms. He wore a gray coat zipped over a maroon scarf. The eye I could see was closed, but I could tell he wasn’t sleeping. Every few minutes he adjusted himself with a precision reserved for the conscious. Perhaps he wasn’t interested in conversation and thought sleep was a lie I wouldn’t challenge. Fair enough—who wakes a stranger just to ask a question? But since he wasn’t sleeping, I figured I could get away with it.
“You cold?”
The eye opened. I’m guessing the other one, too. He aimed it at my book. “Waste of time,” he said. “Tried to read it. Didn’t get far.” Okay, we had the same taste in books. Or at least the same distaste. “No,” he added. “I’m not cold. I’m comfortable.” His eye, the one I could see, closed again.
The vents above blew air, but not warm air. Words came to mind. Comfortable wasn’t one of them. Maybe he only meant comfortable enough. I liked the way that sounded. It fit. I was comfortable enough, too, and went back to my book. It wasn’t any better. Again, I stopped reading, but this time left it open. I stared at a paragraph, a word, a single letter. To anyone walking down the aisle, it looked like I was reading. But I wasn’t. I was only reading enough.
The train rocked gently, marking its progress with an occasional whistle. I looked at the man pretending to sleep, then at the page I was pretending to read. I’m not sure how I missed it. I closed the book but didn’t mark my place. There was no need. I stayed where I was until comfortable enough stopped being enough. It didn’t take long.
Somewhere there was a bar car. I got up to go look for it.
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Not Fast Enough / Too Fast
There was the time my father’s car wouldn’t go fast enough.
“My dad almost killed you.” I tried to lessen the gravity with a hint of playful nostalgia, but failed to capture her attention. She responded with a mildly perplexed expression, like she was curious about what might come next, but not desperate to find out. “His car,” I continued, and went on to explain it hadn’t been built to get somewhere fast—just eventually. “The doctor said another five minutes and we’d have lost you.”
“Sounds about right,” she said. “He never liked me.” It’s true, he never did, though neither of us knew why. What she said next proved more difficult to believe: “Besides, it’s worth a lot of money.”
The car was ridden with, the seats ripped and sagging. It looked ready to be retired. But if she thought otherwise, it wasn’t without good reason. I responded with a perplexed expression of my own, one that carried an impatience missing from hers.
“One day,” she said, “I needed the car, so I drove you to work.” After she got back home, someone knocked on the door, an older man wearing a checkered suit. He steadied his gait with a cane. “That cane was about as fancy as any I’d ever seen. He wasn’t from here, that’s for sure. He was from the city. I don’t know which one, but a big one.” He asked her if she owned the car out front, then asked if she’d consider selling it. “Can you believe that? He just knocked on the door to see if he could buy our car. Said it’s worth a lot of money.” She wondered how much, but figured a lot of money to someone like him was even more to people like us.
I asked why she kept this from me. “Because,” she said, “money like that changes things.” And she liked things the way they were. She reasoned that if he was willing to buy the car, if it really was worth something, we could find someone else if we ever got in a jam.
Made sense to me. I nodded in agreement.
I like that memory. Years later, my father’s car went too fast. I don’t like that one at all.
Wintry weather blended sky and landscape, making it difficult to set them apart. A motorcade wound through town, fronted by a dark car. I followed in my father’s car, and a line of cars followed me. We had our headlights on, but not because we needed them. The dark car set the pace at a notch barely above not moving, like he was ahead of schedule with time to kill. But as slow as we went, a deliberate crawl toward a place I didn’t want to go, it was still too fast.
And while the morning had been cold, the afternoon felt even colder.
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Foster Trecost writes stories that are mostly made up. They tend to follow his attention span: sometimes short, sometimes very short. Recent work appears in Bright Flash Literary Review, Across the Margin, and Halfway Down the Stairs. He lives near New Orleans with his wife and dog.