1. Nothing.
2. Just something on my phone, that’s right.
3. Words.
4. What time’s soccer practice?
5. Nothing really. It’s just—I need—
6. What if we just step outside?
7. What if we—
8. Let’s sit.
9. Right here.
10. Sit down.
11. Right here in the driveway.
12. Nothing, just give me a second, baby.
13. Give me a second here.
14. Her name was Lily.
15. Lily Garza.
16. One of the people yesterday who was—
17. One of the people who died.
18. It was something that happened.
19. She was a year older than you.
20. Nothing, just give me a second.
21. I feel like—come here.
22. Come here to your Dad.
23. I feel like we should have to—
24. She played sports, you know.
25. Like you. Basketball.
26. Last week was her birthday. Thirteen.
27. What time’s practice?
28. Maybe we could—
29. What is nobody did anything?
30. Is that crazy?
31. What if nobody went to the store?
32. Nobody made an appointment.
33. Figured out dinner.
34. What if we just stopped?
35. Everyone.
36. What if we made ourselves.
37. Really.
38. Stop.
39. She wrote haiku. For her fish. In a notebook.
40. Nothing.
41. I’m sorry.
42. I’m sorry, I am.
43. It’s just—
44. Nothing.
45. Hey.
46. It’s okay.
47. I’m okay.
48. I am.
49. Your Dad is—
50. Just give me a second.
Scott Garson is the author of Is That You, John Wayne?—a collection of stories. He lives in central Missouri and edits Wigleaf.