Wakethefuckup:
The road trip, they agree, is a last chance. They haven’t made love in months, mainly because he drags himself in like a sack of lead fishing weights and plugs, first thing, into cable news. Plugs himself in: brain and
Wakethefuckup:
The road trip, they agree, is a last chance. They haven’t made love in months, mainly because he drags himself in like a sack of lead fishing weights and plugs, first thing, into cable news. Plugs himself in: brain and
Consider a single cloud—angry and scowling, drifting away and bobbing up and down, almost like it’s in the ocean trying to reach the horizon, and how dark and maddened, by itself amid plains of skies, giving home to avian flocks who pierce through
There is something more to lotteries than chance.
For once we’re all quiet and even equal, each one of us
holding our small receipt of democracy, expecting with
magnanimous faces our number to be called.
Except it’s not, not equal. When I took a
Now I am quietly waiting for
the catastrophe of my personality
to seem beautiful again,
and interesting, and modern.
— Frank O’Hara, “Mayakovsky”
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After months of isolation, I wonder who it is I see now
when, at the window, I
stare
I bought a book. Books are good. Amazon sent it to my house. That was nice. I read my book. I liked it. I wanted to tell the world about my reading experience. Amazon let me review my book. That was nice. I typed my review, and Amazon flashed me a
Patterns of silence in private, suppressed whelps, dead air. A woman curled into a ball at the top of the stairs, weeping, apoplectic. A few months earlier, there were two parakeets that freely flew through every room in the house. This isn’t a metaphor
I’ve joined the workforce for three reasons: 1) the new minister of music at church is giving voice lessons for $8 a pop, 2) Mama and Daddy don’t have the money, and 3) free cookies.
I start on prep because I’m “too scrawny to work the counter.”
Rid e on bu s
thr ough streets
of sno w
Pas the
Magneto sphere
Giant
Ball of electri city
Pulling busted
cars
Up wards in to
A field of force
crumbling
Drop ed into
the maw
of a furnace
Then
In a blink
The bus
Moves on
Down South St
reet and
past
Fitler Square
Jennifer did not go by Jen, and she certainly did not answer to Jenny. Her name was like her face, a sensible organization of set, or fixed, shapes. Her name was not a haircut, a style, some part of herself that, for wedding or whim, could be cut,
Genevieve’s liver wandered at night, never far, just down the road, into this house or that, crawling through a window or down a chimney, nibbling on whomever, on Sarah Cunningham after her asshole terrier tore up the rhododendrons, on Amy Vanderwall
My name was Wilter. I worked in sales. Ceramics, earthenware, minaret lanterns. We sold tiles in rusty ocean, silver oat, understory, these were our colours. There was no pressure, targets, accountability, and every month-end I was up for
I was going to have Michelangelo’s bake you a huge cassata birthday cake with multiple tiers, and hollowed out in the middle so I could jump out and surprise you, but then I asked myself—am I what you would choose to have pop out of a cake? Might
They heard about the retreat center from a friend of a friend. They heard about it from an ex-coworker, an ex-lover, an ex-in-law. They liked the photos on the website. They imagined themselves sitting on the pretty little bench in the pretty little
The birds here sound like alarm clocks from the 1970s. I’m watching two in particular—five if you count babies who sound more like key fobs. A Steller’s Jay harries a smaller bird guarding a nest. The Steller’s Jay crashes through fir fronds,
Interview with Ruby from “Soft White Underbelly” on YouTube.

When a raindrop begins to descend from the height of one mile over York, Pennsylvania, it is four o’clock in the afternoon. The drop is gray blue, partially magenta. At the same time in Lexington, Kentucky, train A leaves the station heading west.
PABLO NERUDA
Our tongues ring
like bells, your
fingers groan up
the back of my
neck.
We fill this
space with a
lot of things
like
your pointed feet
the bridge of your mouth
fortune cookies
the way I escape
death each
time.
~
PATROL
I found you crying in a
This story is inspired by and named for the daughters of Amanda Stanton, Minor Star of Bachelor Nation, Year 2016
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Our names are Kinsley and Charlie. We are waiting for our mother to come home.
In Los Angeles, in a mansion, our mother is falling in love
We got him a rocking horse but our baby complained it was made of wood and it wasn’t very nice for the tree, and we tried to explain how one thing always displaces another, but our baby was having none of it. He lay in my wife’s arms, a tiny frown